Haibun: Loneliness

A little over a year ago, I left my career. I had a high pressure position that demanded a great deal of my time. My travel was extensive and the only times I was alone was in a hotel room. I used those moments to read and decompress. Books have always been a wonderful companion for me as I can get lost in a good story. The only writing I did was answering the vast amounts of emails I received on any given day. Funny, looking back on it now, I was lonelier then than I am now. Surrounded by people for hours on end. I missed my husband, my home, my bed, and my dog.

When I first had this newfound freedom, there were days I missed the interaction with others. My husband would come home from work, and I was chattering on like a magpie. But as more time went on, something magical happened. I began to notice the earth around me. Where once the colors of my world seemed faded in tones of sepia, they are now brilliant, breathtaking. I watch the birds outside my window as they battle over their place at the feeders. I have seen pearly white butterflies dancing in front of my window, beckoning to me, telling me, this is a good life. I’ve planted seeds, watched them sprout. I now meditate daily and a whole new universe is opening before me.
I spend a large part of my day alone, with nothing but my dog to keep me company and my writing, which consumes me at times.
These days alone are now a treasure. Do I miss people? I know I should say yes but…
writing, my solace
butterflies out my window-
observing nature
©2018 Linda Lee Lyberg

21 Comments on “Haibun: Loneliness

  1. Wow! This made me tear up. I don’t even travel much anymore and I still feel like this! Im so glad you found your bliss and your voice!

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  2. This reflection was deep. People can be over rated, especially when we learn how to use our alone time creatively and constructively. Loved reading this and knowing exactly where you are.

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  3. Perhaps a summer read: A Party of One. Don’t recall the author. Learned about it from another introvert. Might be writing fodder if nothing else. Great write.

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  6. Hello friend. I understand the happiness you must feel when paying attention to the earth. But guess what, there is even more to discover. If I may ask, do you believe in God? He is a truly beautiful companion who seeks to pour out blessings into our lives. Here is something you should try: find a quiet space free from distractions, imagine that Jesus is in front of you, speak to him the way you will with a close friend, tell him about your feelings and make your requests known to him if you have any. Beware of sudden distractions when praying, this is a tool used by the devil to distract people from praying focused prayers. You might also get the feeling that God is not there and that you are simply wasting your time, this is another trick used by the devil to discourage people from prayer. God is there with you and listening to you. When you receive answers to your prayers, do not forget to thank God. Try to maintain a relationship with God, keep telling him how you feel, keep thanking him and try to find out about Jesus. Good luck and God bless.


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